my life
it has almost been 10 years of struggle...my constant struggle with money and problems...18 years old....dad suddenly says that he cannot afford my uni fees...it's ok...get a bank loan, find a part time job...of cos there are times when i really wanna give up..the fights btw my parents at home, the long hours at starbucks after school, early lectures at 8am next morning, the need to get money for my family...but i got thru it... then mum fell ill, relapse of the cancer...we need money again...she passed away in 1999...i found myself a job as a contract teacher..not too bad, i seem to be a natural at teaching...but the constant need to supply my dad with money to pay his debts is really wearing me down...this is beyond my capability...credit cards can only help u to certain extent...when is all these gonna stop? but time passed...it's 2003...i've been teaching for 3 years! but i still have zero savings with no idea when everything is gonna end...making ends meet is wearing me down..then all of a sudden, dad passed away...colon cancer was the culprit...and in august i was diagnosed with major depression, i finally succumbed to stress and miseries...nov...i almost lost my life...but i told myself it was God's way of telling me it's not time yet...it was time for me to pick myself up and move on...June 04, i finally resigned from a job which was giving me no chance to recover...after much considerations, i decided that i have to take a shot and live for myself... Oct 04...i have not found a job...the banks are after me..MOE is after me to pay for my bond...I jus realised that I've been going in circles...my life is still all about these...now i'm lost!
1 Comments:
To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace
What profit has the worker from that in which he labors? I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work God does from beginning to end.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-11
Place God in the centre of your life and revolve around Him and things will fall in place.
take heart, Jesus knows how you feel.
Post a Comment
<< Home